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Week 27: Challenge Accepted!

Lyric of The Week: “I don’t want it all the time. But when I get it, I better be satisfied.  So, give it to me right, or don’t give it to me at all.”
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Goal: 2 pounds in a week to get rid of all the evidence of my problem controlling what I put in my mouth…

Goal met!

Next goal: 5 smokes a day and 2 pounds a week. Bring it.

Week 11: Last Will

I, Patricia Anne, being of brilliant, but underused and misdirected mind and “gettin’ better every day” body, do leave behind to the last 11 weeks the following gifts: I leave behind fear for the sake of fear and “not doing”.  The last 11 weeks can keep that. Life is too short to hold back on something because I have always been afraid it or for some other stupid reason. I have already left behind a 27 year standing fear of bridges and bones. Hopefully, I’ll have a lot more to leave behind in the future . . . I leave behind being Agent T of the Bureau of CAN (Catch a Nigga Cheating). I am handing in my badge and gun. My skills and tradecraft at this job will be used for other, WONDERFUL discoveries or to come to the aid of my sisters who need it. But, otherwise, Agent T is dead. If I gotta stakeout, stalk, and survey your ass, you are not worth my time. Period. . .I also leave behind the messy girl I was taught to be by my mother. I have a deep love for cleanliness but no talent to make it so.  I leave behind the disorganized teachings of a woman who never got much right– why should I believe she is right on her rules for keeping a house? . . . I leave being the Great Black King Search to the women still looking and to the Tricia of 11 weeks ago. I am the Black Queen. What do I need his ass for? And if one can manage to protect himself from the opposing white army of hoes and pawns, maybe at the end of the game he will find ME. But I am done looking. In the end, the queen has to make sure SHE doesn’t go down herself trying to build the castle. . . I also leave behind the flab. I have left a sizeable chunk of it already and now it is time to trim the remaining bits. This means hard work and sweat. (I was dreading this part.) I have been trying to reach the final frontier for MONTHS. Enough already. This means fine tuning the eating, cleansing out the junk and moving this ass. . .  which will inevitably lead me to the next thing I plan to leave– the smoking. . .  In summary, I leave behind the bad thoughts and the bad habits and the bad choices to much younger women who still have the time to make them. This girl does not. And Finally I leave behind the Lyric of the Week: “Fue un placer estar contigo, per sueltame, sueltame, sueltame, ya.” (Sueltame, DLG) May I never have to sing it again.

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Week 8: ♥ Summer 2 Fall ♥

This week I really need to let the pictures speak for themselves.  It was a relaxing, productive and fun filled week.  The balance between personal life and family life was very challenging this week. But when things seem a little off I corrected them right away.  I soaked up the remainder of the summer and dived head first into Fall.  

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Week 6: ♥~ Miles of Fun

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This week I continue to push myself to be a better version of myself. I started my Sunday with a mile walk. Pushing myself and staying focused is my goal every day. Taking it one day at a time is the best thing I can do. I’m eating correct and counting every thing I eat. I’ve even proved to myself that I can still enjoy a night out and eat healthy. Taking time for myself and enjoying life has become easier each week. My family and friends have been an amazing support system to me as I enter into a new phase of my life.

The week rounded out with a trip to the beach.  I truly had a great day. The weather was great, my family had a blast and I ended the evening with a drink,  a salad and the song of the weekend “get lucky” which is what I felt like on Friday. 

Saturday I was reminded what “no pain no gain” felt like.  I blocked it,  I cried about it then realized the pain was worth what I was gaining. 

Focused on this week and looking forward to the miles ahead of me.

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Week 5: ♡ Better Me

My week started out full, jam packed and of course with my family. I really love the weekends because that’s my time with my love ones. I started with my sis, mom in law and all 3 of my kids. It is great that I can still be close to my in laws even tho I am not with my husband any more. The one thing I value the most is FAMILY. Ending Sunday with all of my in laws and my kids was great. Didn’t think the week could get any better, but I was wrong…

Monday was my relaxing day and finally got my French toast, yeah my mom is the best. I did a lot of thinking, resting and really needed some time to regroup. Tuesday was the day I decided that it has been long over due for me to take “ME” back. Counting calories, adding some exercise and joined a website of supportive and motivated people. Putting my right foot forward, out with the old foot wear and eating habits. Walking is my new friend and I can’t wait to see how far we GO!

Spending all week doing better for me and my family has made me a better person. I have more energy, and really can feel myself changing inside and out. The journey will not always be easy, but with my love ones by my side I know I CAN DO IT!

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